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Letting Go

In January I wrote a post about Determination during 2011. I specifically mentioned 10 things I resolve to do this year. My idea today is to break down resolution number one and hopefully over the next few weeks, looking more deeply into all 10. By making a point to know and understand my resolutions, maybe they will have a better opportunity of become a reality.

Have you ever hurt anyone? I’m not saying on purpose. Or maybe it was.Ever used harsh words, unkind actions, made intentionally bad decisions that affected someone you care about? Sometimes, even, done or said something that caused someone pain and you didn’t even know about it. Confession: I have done all of the above. 

And the hardest thing about it, is asking for forgiveness. Admitting fault, putting on my big girl pants and hoping to make amends.

Ever ask for forgiveness and not receive it? Ever been held accountable for something you didn’t even know you did?

Power without love is reckless and abusive….. Power at it’s best is love implementing the demands of justice. Dr Martin Luther King Jr

Wielding the power to forgive or not to forgive is a decision everyone will make. We will all be hurt unnecessarily. We will be in the path of someone’s angry words, harsh actions and bad decisions. My hope this year is that I can use the power of forgiveness in love. I resolve to give the kind of justice that was handed to me by my God.

I am going to let go of the opportunity to hold a hurt over someone’s head. I’m not going to let anger make decisions for me. I am not going to decide that my system of justice is better than God’s. I am going to lovingly forgive someone who doesn’t deserve it.

This isn’t going to be easy. I am going to want someone to hurt as much as I hurt. I am going to want someone to feel the pain I feel. I will want someone to be held responsible for their actions. That is why, the power of forgiveness is so huge. That is why this will not only free someone to know love, it will also change me.

Can you resolve to let go?

He Knows

Emmanuel, God with us. He came so we may have life. He came to know the human experience. He came to die so that we may have a relationship with Him. He came to give us all; Grace.  For some of us we may never believe we deserve grace. The call to faith is too great for many. For others, accepting something for nothing just doesn’t make sense. It is the greatest gift, receiving redemption even though we don’t deserve it. From the beginning of creation our Father has wanted relationship with us and He has had a plan all along.

Psalm 103: 13 As a father has compassion on his children,
so the Lord has compassion on those who fear him;

14 for he knows how we are formed,
he remembers that we are dust.

 

He knows. That is grace to me. That He knows where I have come from, where I am going and He loves me anyway. He knows I am dirt, and yet He still holds His arms open wide, celebrating me. In Psalm 103:3-5 it says the benefits of God are forgiveness, healing, redemption, love, compassion, and He wants to satisfy the desires of our hearts. He knows. He knows you don’t deserve it. You can’t earn grace, He knows what you have done and where you have been. He knows we are dirt.

And even though He knows: He still came, He still lived. He still died. He still rose from the grave. And He is still coming back for us.

Of all the gifts we have received this and every holiday season. The greatest gift is grace. It is for you and everyone, it is for the world. It is ours for the receiving.

~Angela

This is an original post from the Grace Project on the Canvas Church blog Canvas Rhapsody.

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I can be a bit of an overachiever. It use to not be such a big deal to me. I use to achieve very little because I was afraid of trying and failing. I figured I would always just continue to do the things I already knew and be really good at those things. A few years ago, I got tired of being afraid and started becoming more adventurous in the new things I have tried. I like doing new things now, even if it is scary, I push through that and continue on.

Sometimes being an overachiever is a great distraction. I mean, I can distract you with what I am capable of doing. But, it also leaves a lack of humility. I know in my heart that the purpose of all my doing and achieving is because I am responding to a grace given to me freely, but I don’t always point to my God when I do accomplish things. Or, that it was truly God working in and through me that even made the accomplishment possible. I just like to point to the accomplishment, look, do you see? It is like sleight of hand for me, I add the bells and whistles around the good so you can’t see the 1000 mistakes and failures that I have made to accomplish that 1 good thing.

You see, accomplishment and lack of humility, I use them to hide my insecurities. I use them so you don’t see that I may fail you, I may fall short of your expectation of me. I don’t have this thing called life all figured out and while I want to lead and teach and love on you, I am afraid I will ultimately let you down.

So, I have shown you my hand, laid my cards on the table. I am insecure, I live with a constant fear that I will never truly be good enough. But, you see, I have a Savior, my God, who came and died because I was separated from Him. He lives in me, he is transforming me. I am beginning to believe the things He says about me. So for every 1 accomplishment, Praise God He stepped in and made it possible. And for every 1000 failures, Praise God He stepped in and made it possible to be forgiven.

Do you ever find yourself pointing to your achievements hoping that no one will notice what you are failing at?

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