Posts tagged ‘love’

Letting Go

In January I wrote a post about Determination during 2011. I specifically mentioned 10 things I resolve to do this year. My idea today is to break down resolution number one and hopefully over the next few weeks, looking more deeply into all 10. By making a point to know and understand my resolutions, maybe they will have a better opportunity of become a reality.

Have you ever hurt anyone? I’m not saying on purpose. Or maybe it was.Ever used harsh words, unkind actions, made intentionally bad decisions that affected someone you care about? Sometimes, even, done or said something that caused someone pain and you didn’t even know about it. Confession: I have done all of the above. 

And the hardest thing about it, is asking for forgiveness. Admitting fault, putting on my big girl pants and hoping to make amends.

Ever ask for forgiveness and not receive it? Ever been held accountable for something you didn’t even know you did?

Power without love is reckless and abusive….. Power at it’s best is love implementing the demands of justice. Dr Martin Luther King Jr

Wielding the power to forgive or not to forgive is a decision everyone will make. We will all be hurt unnecessarily. We will be in the path of someone’s angry words, harsh actions and bad decisions. My hope this year is that I can use the power of forgiveness in love. I resolve to give the kind of justice that was handed to me by my God.

I am going to let go of the opportunity to hold a hurt over someone’s head. I’m not going to let anger make decisions for me. I am not going to decide that my system of justice is better than God’s. I am going to lovingly forgive someone who doesn’t deserve it.

This isn’t going to be easy. I am going to want someone to hurt as much as I hurt. I am going to want someone to feel the pain I feel. I will want someone to be held responsible for their actions. That is why, the power of forgiveness is so huge. That is why this will not only free someone to know love, it will also change me.

Can you resolve to let go?

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A Kiss

Most of my days begin in the most awesome way. My dear hubby, who leaves for work about two hours before I even think about crawling out of bed, gives me a kiss. It isn’t terribly romantic and I am usually not awake. But my heart rejoices in knowing he takes a moment in his morning routine to think of me. That simple act of affection tells me that I am important and a priority to him.

About a year ago, my friend Sara and I challenged each other to spend a few extra moments each day with God. Neither of us are morning people but both of us felt called to give the first part of our day to Him. How do we make this work?

First Fruits is what we have called it. Acknowledging the first part of our day as belonging to God. I am a big fan of setting myself up for small successes. This is one thing in my personal time that has worked out quite well. There isn’t much to it. I relate it to the way I feel when my husband kisses me in the morning. My first fruits are a kiss to God, a moment to acknowledge Him as a priority to my day. It is a simple moment of affection.

I set my alarm about 15 min earlier than I use to. I check the email on my phone for the daily devotion that has come into my inbox. I rarely read the devotion but I read the Word. Usually, a short sentence or two of scripture to read and then I pray. I tell God how thankful I am for Him, I tell Him how much I love Him. No petition, no conversation, no expectations. Just a kiss, to let Him know He is my priority today.

Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength. ~Jesus (Mark 12:30)

We are about to start an 8 week series on prayer during our Wednesday night Growth Track at Canvas Church. I love prayer. I don’t think we do it enough, don’t set ourselves up to be successful. Do you think a prayer life can start with something as simple as giving first fruits?

I DO

Should I warn you that this post may be cheezy?

Today I am celebrating 16 years of marriage to an amazing man. I know this is the part where I should disclaimer that it hasn’t always been easy but I am not going to tell you about that stuff. To be honest, I don’t think enough people share their amazing marriage stories. The moments when sharing a life with someone makes it complete. So, if you don’t mind, I am going to share how amazing my life with Ted has been.

When I was 18, Ted asked me to marry him. All I knew is that no matter where he was going to go in life, I wanted to be with him, so I said Yes. We were married the next year.

I really didn’t know that “where” would move us to Iowa and then to Tennessee. I didn’t know it would see him through college and the birth of two beautiful daughters. I didn’t know it would lead us to putting God as head of our home. I didn’t know it would lead us through heartache and a miscarriage. I didn’t know I would laugh so much and cry so much. I didn’t know it would be full of forgiveness and love. I didn’t know that the “where” would bring me to call my marriage home, my safe place.

Being Ted’s wife makes me a better me. He encourages me to be more. He knows my dreams and pushes me forward. He has never let me stay too long in the times where I didn’t believe in myself. He has poured more love and positive words into me than I ever have believed I deserved. He has never used my failures against me.

Today I Celebrate. A life shared with my best friend. A life shared with my hottie. A life shared with my home, my safe place. A life full of laughter, joy, hope and love. I Celebrate the rest of this journey. I still can’t wait to see where else this life is going to take us.

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